my life is my adventure

I hate the fact that you're not here, beside me.
I hate how you make me felt in love with you 5 years ago, and i am stuck on you!
I hate after all happiness that we have, you ruined this.
I hate you who making me feel this 'unwanted' feeling.
I hate you who absolutely dont care about me even when i care xo much about you.
I hate when I pass through every hour and every day without you.
I hate when i realize that i still want you to stay in my life and make it become 'our life'.
I hate you as much as i love you.

-But with all this feeling, i feel a little bit happy, just to make sure that you are really exist in my life and become the important part of it.